|Posted by beckyspillowshop on June 27, 2009 at 9:18 PM|
I am not sure what to say . I had declared this was going to be a better year, but it got worse than I could ever imagine. In my last blog, I was praising God, because Charles was still alive after the accident, but I guess God had other plans. On June 16, 2009 , Charles went to be with the Lord while in The University of Maryland Medical Center in Baltimore. He had had emergency surgery on his colon a few hours earlier & had come through the surgery OK. After they brought him back to recovery, he went into cardiac arrest, & the doctors tried to recussitate him for an hour, but were unable to do so.
It was truly a miracle that he even survived the accident at all , because according to the state trooper, Charles told him that the 2nd & 3rd tires rolled over him. Charles said that 2 men stopped to help and they stayed until the paramedics got there. But, the paramedics said there was no one there when they arrived. These 2 men that Charles could see & the paramedics could not see were evidently "angels" helping him. This gave Charles 13 more days on this earth & more time for us to spend together. I remember very vividly that day at lunch, praying for guardian angels to protect Charles & keep him safe while out on the road that day in his truck. ( God answered my prayer, but not exactly the way I wanted Him to.)
Charles was in severe pain, probably more than you or I could ever imagine. His pelvis was so badly crushed, and I am not sure he would have ever fully recovered. They could not give him enough pain medication to make it go away, just enough to ease it some. It was hard seeing him suffer so, & I don't think he could have endured all the suffering he would have to go through to recover. I guess God knew that & decided to relieve him . I know that Charles is no longer suffering because he's in heaven where there is no sickness or pain. Sometimes we don't understand why God, why would you allow this to happen to Charles? We probably will never understand, but God knew & he had his reasons. Charles loved the Lord , & it was evident to those whom Charles knew. I pray that will leave a lasting impression on them and maybe help someone to come to know the Lord through the life of Charles.
The day before he died he had been in a wheel chair for the first time . That night I took him a Get Well balloon, & a little Leap frog that had " Little Leaps' on the tag. I told him now he would be taken "little leaps" from his bed to his wheel chair. I think it just made his day because I saw a big grin on his face . Now Charles is taking "big leaps" of joy with Jesus up in heaven.
I got used to him being gone a lot, but when he was out on the road driving a truck, he would always come back home. This time he's not coming back home, but I know that he is in his eternal home with Jesus. There is a big hole in my heart & I miss him terribly. There will never be another Charles! He was one of a kind, funny, loving, devoted husband, and even silly at times, but he kept me laughing & made life interesting. I miss his silly jokes & comments, and his phone calls during the evenings while he was working & even his chocolate fingerprints on the refrigerator door ,and his diesel smelling clothes. I miss hearing him come in at 3:00 am, from driving his truck . I would always wake up & talk to him - 25 minutes later, we finally would decide we better get some sleep. I have a lot of good memories of Charles in my heart, and for that I am very thankful.